benzene

1/ beers and jacking off, my utility

staying in my room, my ability

that was me. standing still all day.

that was me. watching pornography

that was me. just with a gloating smile

sleeping 12 hours a day...

2/ lying on my bed, no one called him

crying all day, screaming to my bath tub

that was me. muttering by myself

that was me. peeping neighbors

that was me. just with a gloating smile

sleeping 12 hours a day, but I didn't want to end the endless dream

I hoped that I was never coming back.


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sleeping 12 hours a day, but I didn't want to end the endless dream

that's the only way I slipped out of the room of June fifteenth.

that's the one way I ran away from the room of June fifteenth.